My dearest Keagan,
What an amazing little boy you are becoming. There are so many things that I want you to know, and so many things I never want to forget about you at this time in your life. You are so very sweet. I hope that you stay this way. You love your momma and call out to me in the mornings (Momma! Where are you? Momma, come 'ere!). You love your daddy, and get so excited when you know that he's home or that he's coming home soon. You love your brother. This is the best part to me. That you know enough about love to show love to your baby brother amazes me. He has only been around two short months, he has taken over and is demanding of my time and attention, yet you show him love and you care about him when he cries. You even share your toys with him! Your spontaneous kisses on the baby's head, on my knee, hand, arm, and on your daddy's leg pull at my heart strings. You are so loving!! I never want to forget how, in the mornings when I am changing you, you grab my hand and pull it to your face, kiss it a bunch and say "MY momma!" Everything is "Mine" right now. Sometimes this can get annoying because it is difficult to tell you that it isn't yours. But I will gladly be yours. You can call me "mine" anytime. Forever, actually.

You go through phases that have been oh-so difficult. I think that all children do this. I am learning right along-side you. Recently you have gone through a phase that is more ugly than I have ever seen. In fact, it has shocked me. You have kicked and screamed and thrown things in defiance. It has been difficult to figure out how to discipline you, and I have lost control at times. I don't know the right things to do sometimes, like I said: I am learning, too. But despite it all, I hope you know that I loved you even in our most ugly moments. I love you more than you can ever imagine. These difficult and ugly moments are some I would like to forget. I am thankful that you will never know exactly how it all played out.

Your interests interest me. No, I don't care a bit about die cast matchbox cars. Or Elmo, choo-choo trains, or sliding down slides. But because you care about these things, I will go to great lengths to allow you to expand your interests. I will leave your cars parked on the couch for days, because I know how much it means to you and how hard you work. I will help you go down the slide (even the big, twisty slide at the park!), point out Elmo when he makes an appearance on the Today show, let you watch Lion King or Kung Fu Panda on repeat, or buy you Thomas the Train toys, shirts, jammies...because these interest you. And make you happy.
I never, ever want to forget how your little legs hang off your carseat, how your socks cut into your chunky ankles (even though you are hardly chunky!), how we have to roll your pants at the waist to get them to stay up (see!? hardly chunky...), how you love your shoes, how you ask for more marshmallows and chocolate chips in your trail mix.

I don't want to forget how you ask for a "juice drink" and "fruit snack" when you know we are going for a walk. How you label everything as we drive down the street (daddy's truck, big truck, tractor, house, lawn mower, yellow, motor-go-go) and how enthusiastic you are! Or how, when I get off the phone or we talk to someone you don't know, you always ask "who dat, momma?" And my favorite is how wonderful your manners are, without me having to prompt every time. You are so good about saying thank you, please, bless you. And you use these appropriately! You are very opinionated on what you wear, have been for a while. You like your hats, sunglasses, belts, etc. You don't like your sleeves rolled up and if you have a jacket on you don't want anyone taking it off. It's quite funny how particular you are. You are definitely your own little person.
Even though you chase the dog endlessly, point your finger back at me when I reprimand you, and don't always listen (you
are two, afterall!), I wish that I could remember every detail, sight, smell, sound. You are growing too quickly, time is passing by at lightening speed. You are such an amazing blessing to me. I hope that as our family grows and changes you will always know what a special place you have in my heart, and always will. I am your momma, and I am so thankful to God that He chose me! And thank you, Keagan, for showing me what true love is. There is absolutely nothing like the love a mother has for her babies. You are the first one to show me this.
I love you, my sweet Keagan.
Love,
Mommy